The Second.

Mannn.... Time flies... Just generally by the way, its not as if im having fun at the moment... so not much has really been happening, although i have just finished all my exams. Well i lie, i have one more to go, not that i want to, my idiot maths teacher leslie entered me in for it despite me telling him that it would be useless as i wouldnt care enought to want to do well!

Ofcourse after the inevitable exams there is prom. God knows what is actually up with it although i do know i will probably have a better time getting ready for the thing itself, than actaully being there.. but who knows! Really im just looking forward to seeing everyone together again, even if it is the last time, and also just dance the whollee night, because dancing with all your friends is fun. :)Who knows whether the actual night will live up to all these expectations and tales told.

Other things going on would be that i went to the doctor the other day to be told the results of my blood tests to find that i have polycystic ovarian syndrome, which is fine and all just that i would have really rather have not known and found out when im older cause its quite a load on my mind. You know everytime you get passed by a kid or baby and think "Oh... i wonder if i will ever have a chance to get that.." It just sucks that children are probably the only thing in the world i was sure i really wanted. But shit happens i guess i should deal with it and not dwell.

On a better notice, i am redecorating my room, i got bored of the dark plum colour, im ready to change it. I feel a light colour so i chose white, some say boring, i say CALM!! I have also had a major green obsession in every sense, the colour will also be splayed all over my room and i have planted a vegtable patch including chillies, peas, spring onion, garlic and rosemary. Yes a weird combination but i like it :) i have spent that last few days clearing out my room, i had no idea i had that much stuff! i guess its right when my mum tells me that i keep and store everything, but i guess i like memories. I have to buy a nice book to make into a scrap book of esher high so i can remember all the good things. i dont want to think about the bad things as there has been that many. But i wont be sad to leave.. a little gutted, but that will soon pass! But im glad i have the chance to have some space this summer cause everyone and everything is getting on my last nerve, its also a chance to not have to deal with certain people! I can leave behind evryone i want to even if they are going to same college, i can simply say "bye, i have had enough."

What else is happening so far? COLLEGE. So i found out that there are about 30 different tutors and they are trying to mix everyone up. So i went about trying to find somebody that im with, as i have been places on the second floor in O109. I eventually found two boys who were in the same form.. but still i would have been arkward! But then rachel from my primary school told me she was in the same so disaster averted! Anyways so introduction on the 3rd July.

Well i guess all there is to say know is that im waiting to summer holiday to really kick in, and yes i realise this is soo pointless as i doubt anyone will read this.. but its a good offload as i said beforee! Bye for now!